i ran up fe stairs. and fe stairs didnd end. and fe people were clapping and applauding at me from bof sides. and i see. and fe stairs are not there. and i am not really running. i am being carried. and fe stairs talk to me. in many voices fe stairs say things like "youre not really here" or "let me show you my pacience" or "the trees wont talk but listen." or "today is my birthday" or "these words are real. and real they are.